THE NEVER-ENDING CHATTER

Have you felt like just giving up? I don’t mean giving up on life itself, I mean stop doing the thing. The thing you set your heart and mind to do. But you just keep hitting obstacles and walls that loom large before you. Many times, it’s not even an actual obstacle or wall...it’s our own voice in our head. It’s telling you are not good enough, someone else is doing it better than you, you are wasting your time, blah, blah, blah... Then we start to think what if that voice is right? What if we are dreaming too big? Or we don’t have what it takes to be successful? Believe me, I have “heard” that voice too many times as well. I used to listen to it and just throw in the towel. Not anymore! I tell it to shut up and leave me alone! I got big fish to fry, and I am going to get it done! Now mind you, I haven’t changed overnight. It took lots of self-reflection to why I was listening in the first place. Where did that voice come from? Why was it haunting me that way? It took some time to actually heal myself from all the chatter. But once I did, I didn’t let it take control anymore. Yes, I still have it mocking me in the background from time to time, but the noise is not as loud. Many times, it stems from our childhood, insecurity, low self-esteem, no confidence, etc... The important thing is to find out where it comes from (if you can) and work on healing that part of you. Life is always a healing journey. We will not always solve or know why everything happens the way it does. The important thing is to know how to deal with it when it arises. Not beating it down and pretending it’s not there. But to actually face it and let your healing begin. Because once you do, that feeling of giving up will dissipate like that chatter in your head.